"“Chronic illness takes its toll on friendship for several reasons. We become undependable as..."

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“Chronic illness takes its toll on friendship for several reasons. We become undependable as companions, often having to cancel plans at the last minute if it turns out we can’t get out of bed on the day of a scheduled commitment. And, living in the world of the sick, we gradually have less and less in common with those with whom we worked and played.”

“Knowing these reasons doesn’t make the isolation any less painful an adjustment as we watch people disappear from our lives one by one, some after dozens of years of friendship. On top of this painful personal experience, we also encounter all the ‘healthy living’ advice that tells us that maintaining an active social life enhances both mental and physical health. And so worry is added to isolation.”

——Toni Bernhard——

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- (via iamkarennicole)

2009 Questionnaire of FEAR PROPORTIONS

Fri, 15 Mar 2013 19:56:00 +0200

I have few enough followers to be sure this won’t really mess up anyones tumblr feed. HA HAAA

1.How far away is the last person you kissed?

Newlandz0r

2.Has someone ever told you they would be with you forever?

Kitsune, in the deep of night, under the covers… while we were macking

3.Last person you were in the car with?

My dad! Speeding as usual and commenting on cars

4.Any plans for tomorrow?

First sleep over in like, yeears! D:

5.How long does it take for you to take a shower?

0.00 seconds. as I dont shower

6.When is your birthday?

6 Januarrry!

7.Is tomorrow going to be a good day?

Hopefully! Unless I get a tide attack which I probably will…

8.Did you kiss anyone friday?

YES. ALEX. MY GAY LOVVAAH

9.Ever thrown up in public?

oh god. no. that is something I keep for special private times!

10.What’s on your mind RIGHT NOW?

Why am I itchy in odd places and why does this room smell like chicken

11.Who was the last person you talked to?

My brother. About how tricky it is to cut apart people and stitch them back up

12.What is the WORST subject they teach at school?

AFRIKAANS. Oh GOD i hated my teacher! but yay maths was cool. Ironically now I remember most of the afrikaans i was taught and none of the maths. What sick joke is this!

13.Have you seen anyone lately that you don’t get along with?

uhhmm. Yeah. But Im too neutral a person to really clash with anyone. So if I clash with you, youre garunteed to be a real fucking tard.

14.What is your favorite colour shirt to wear?

Grey or green or black :3 OR, alternately. Maroon.

15.Have you ever been in a car accident?

It is how I lost 3 of my limbs and the left side of my brain

16.Whats the closest thing to you that’s green?

my shoe laces 8D

17.Where would you like to be right now?

On a yacht, with my boyfriend, sailing into the sun. (while our retinas melt and burn)

and then on a beach or somethingorotheridontknow

18.Write down some lyrics to the song you’re listening to;

“Dawn was easy, she was drowned in the bath.” yes. I am a serial killer.

19.How many dogs do you have?

three! X3

20.Is anything bugging you right now?

Not really. Probably just my brother leaving, and usual things.

21.How is life going for you right now?

Its difficult and it takes a lot of my energy and resolve. But then one cannot expect any less from a dromaeosaurid living in a modern world.

22.Is there someone you care about more than yourself?

Many. Mostly my close family and two other poopsicles <3

23.What made you laugh today?

Kyle Cease, explaining how his roomate left an entire poop on his towel 8D

24.What was the last movie you watched?

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button! Le heart heart

25.What’s the last conversation you had about?

Wonderlaaaanndd, chaaarlie!

26. What were you doing at 7:00am?

groping for my morning pills in the darkness of my bat cave.

27.Do you like your hair long or short?

hmm. I kinda like it short, but it looks better long. Or the other way round… I forget D:

28.Do you want to see somebody right now?

that is the dumbest question in the history of dumb

29.Do you like the rain?

YES PLEASE

30.Do you think you’ll have a Valentine this year?

IT IS PAST THAT TIMMMMME.

31.The last person you kissed needs you at 3 AM, would you go?

I am awake and ready to go at any time thank you!

32.Would you honestly say you’d risk your life for someone else?

I think the thought of living while someone you cared for is in danger and you didnt do anything about it, is a lot harder than dying.

Although.

I havent died yet, so I cant say.

but yes! I would

33.Honestly, if you could go back 1 month and change something would you?

only 1 month?

34.How do you feel about girls getting drunk?

Drunken people… They are meh

34.Could you see yourself with someone forever?

Yes

35.What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?

Oh god why is there sun and pain… euuurgh

36.Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months or more?

yes please. I dont do short term

37.Do you forgive or forget?

Id say Im a bit of both. Although I find it hard to forget the big things, or the seemingly little things that drive me mental…

38.Do you trust people?

Very much. Except the health care profession. DIE CRUSH REND

39.What are you not looking forward to?

renewing my prescriptionnnnssss

40.Do you get mad easily?

no, it takes a lot to get me mad… but its very easy to annoy me. Not that it lasts long though

41.Has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?

nope. Someone once said they were cat-like. And then I made someones head explode with my eye balls

42.Do you have strange dreams?

yes O____o I dream a lot about my teeth, and dead fish, and poop. yeeah

43.Ever licked someone’s cheek or forehead?

yuh huh

44.Last time you fell asleep in someone’s arms?

A couple weeks ago. although technically it was dozing off

45.When did you last throw up?

uhh 8 days ago

46.What do you have on you at all times?

my ipod and cell phone

47.Would you go out in public without getting dressed up or put together?

O_o

what do you think I do everyday?

48.Do you like fruity or minty gum?

MINT PLEAAASSSE

49. Favourite musician or group?

alienantfarmiwillalwaysbeloyaltoyou<3

50. Favourite film of all time?

Reservoir dogs, the wackness

51. Favourite computer game?

planescape torment and ff8! >_<

52. First album you ever went and bought with your own money?

Anthology :3

53. Think back five months ago, were you single?

no sirree

54. Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?

i want to celebrate eeeeeveerrything!

55. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

If not I will cut them

a heart out of paper!

56. Last thing you bought?

a tshirt

57. Are you a jealous person?

Im always jealous. Never underestimate my ability to resent others very silently and unnoticably.

58. Does it take a lot to make you cry?

I am an emotion bottle

There are 2 topics that can make me bawl like a baby.

you shall never know them.

59. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?

not for a long time

60. Have you ever had your heart broken? If so, how many times?

EVERYDAY O’ MAH LIIIIIFFE

61. Do you like to cuddle/snuggle?

that is so ridiculously obvious! do not let my raptorly exterior fool you, I am cuddle safe.

62. Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?

oh god yes

63. What does the sixteenth text in your inbox say?

did you remember its double xp day?!

(i did)

64. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?

yes. and they did. thank you cosmos <3

65. Is your life anything like it was a year ago?

whatwhatwhat

no… its scary how different it is.

Im scared that if I look any closer, it’ll all just disappear

66. This time last year, can you remember who you liked?

hahaha. oh yes. so very clearly

67. You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life, what is it?

water. serial-cereal-cellery. Besides the lack of caffeine it is glorious

WAIT I FORGOT BEER

68. Have you lost contact with someone you wish you didn’t?

yes :( especially one person, but I cant bring myself to reconnect

69. What is the last thing you said out loud?

cant you see that you terrify him!?

70. When was the last time you cried?

erf. ssssh

71. Do you have friends you can tell stuff to and you’re sure they won’t tell?

most definitely. Although those friends are the ones that will most definitely gossip to me about everyone else 8D

72. What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

reposition my cat so that he wasnt on my barf machine

73. What can’t you wait for?

BECOMING FAMOOSE

74. Have you ever told anyone you would marry them?

When I was 4 I proposed to my best friend when we were reinacting the little mermaid in my moms room 8D HE TOTALLY SAID YES NOW I JUST NEED TO REFIND HIM

UNLESS HES WEIRD NOW

IN WHICH CASE I WILL TELL HIM I ABORTED OUR MERBABY

75. What’s the worst way to say “i love you?”

After being a dick about something. Then it can either make the situation 100% better or just fall flat on its face and make you resent them for it. Or think theyre pathetic at saving a situation.

Some people have a knack of making it work…

76. Seven days from now will you be in a relationship?

Unless he spontaneously changes his mind after finding out that Im a mango-slaughtering ghost buster :(

77. Are you mad about anything?

not really. mildly confused and numb, i suppose

78. What is the last thing you got in trouble for with your parents?

erm. Boys. Probably. Or not speaking to them (my parents, not the boys O_o)

79. Are you mean?

No. But I dont like backing down from things

80. Were you happy when you woke up today?

I was waking up. What do you think? D:

81. Has a boy/girl called you babe or baby in the past two days?

yeeeeessss

82. Do you hate it when people smoke around you?

it smells like gunk and makes me cough

83. Do you have anything that belongs to a boyfriend/girlfriend?

kinda

84. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?

x_x

85. How long do you think you will live?

in an ideal world? longer than my parents, shorter than my children

86. Does it bother you when people respond with one word?

yes! I mean, thank you for just killing all hope of a two way conversation, you ass

87. Do you believe once a cheater, always a cheater?

Once a cheater, soon to be dead. BY MY HAND AND PAINFUL CASTRATING DEVICE

88. Who disgusts you?

negative, self centred, over judgemental people who read too much into the tiny irrelevant things that have no bearing on how someone truly is on the inside, compared to what those things make them seem.

you fucks

89. Name one thing people think about you that’s not true?

female. human. serious about things that I say. Bi (leroflcoffee!)

90. What would you do if your best friend turned gay?

Tell her it’ll all be ok, there are camps for that thing.

91. Is your hair naturally curly or straight?

as wavey as a bad 80’s ‘do

92. Do you drink tea?

ofcourse. I not only drink it, /i pee it/

93. How do you feel about chocolate covered strawberries?

I have never had them, but I do believe they are reserved for sexy time, a long with leather and small chocolate easter eggs?

94. Do you currently have feelings for anybody?

What kind of feelings? And why anybody? WHY ARE YOU NOT MORE SPECIFIC

I THOUGHT YOU WERE MY FATHER!

95. Have you ever stripped for money?

yes but I gave it back

DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA ABOUT THE STATE OF THE ECONOMY THESE DAYS WHAUT

96. Is the last person you kissed more than a year older than you?

Physically. Mentally we are both 2

97. Ever kissed someone with the letters c, a, s,d, q, or j as their first initial?

why those letters? O_O

98. Two days from now this time, where will you be?

probably here. Drinking tea. being fat. WONDERING WHY THOSE LETTERS

99. Do you think you are a good person?

Besides the odd moments where I kidnap babies and use them as slaves to generate power for my computer, yeah! sure!

"Tears, sorrow, and disappointment are bitter, but wisdom is the comforter in all psychic suffering...."

Wed, 13 Feb 2013 01:26:30 +0200

“Tears, sorrow, and disappointment are bitter, but wisdom is the comforter in all psychic suffering. Indeed, bitterness and wisdom form a pair of alternatives: where there is bitterness wisdom is lacking, and where wisdom is there can be no bitterness.”

- Carl Jung - Mysterium conjunctionis

Erroneous Oneiros

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